I say I'm sorry way too much. I can find a way to apologize for everything. Even when I say something nice to someone, or get a compliment, I find myself slipping in an "I'm sorry" somewhere in the conversation.
Mixed in there is this never ending guilt for being me. I feel bad for the way I look so I dress in a way that isn't expressive of who I am. I feel bad for eating in front of others so I either eat and feel horrible afterward, or leave hungry. Its really not a healthy way to live.
So I'm working on it. I'm trying to get this thick film of who I am not off of my skin so I can be truly Catherine. I am sick of this apologetic life, I want to be true to myself.
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