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photograph taken exactly one year ago

Thank you my darlings for the sweet and thoughtful comments on my last post. It means a lot!

Last night R helped me create a list of to-dos. There are the drop dead must do daily items: get out of bed, take meds, etc. Then there are the time sensitive things to do: phone calls, bills to pay, parties to plan. Lastly, there are the want to dos: watch certain movies, paint, and write. I'm using the evernote app, which syncs with my laptop, iPhone, and iPad so I always have access to it, and it even has check boxes I can mark for each task, plus it's free so that's a bonus.

I can't help but feel a little overwhelmed and stressed with everything that is going on. On Thursday we had our first consultation with an infertility specialist. He was really nice and thorough. I have a ton of blood work to do as well as an X-ray and ultrasound. There are going to be a lot of difficult decisions to make in the coming months. I'm trying to take good care of myself. And remember that all I can do is what I need to do today. I don't need to worry about the future. All I need to do today is eat right and take my prenatal vitamin before bed, everything else has to wait.

I feel pretty fragile right now. And that is understandable. I just need to take it one day at a time.

xx, C