life collection

I'm not doing well. I thought the depression was lifting there for a bit, but now it is even worse. The weird thing is life just goes on. Even when I feel like I am at rock-bottom. I still have to eat, move, go places, smile. 

I think I had hit a false bottom for a bit. Like a loosely taped cardboard-box bottom I fell through to the basement floor. And this is real, and horrible.

I'm so sad. It's incredible how much sadness a person can feel.

I feel so sick and awful, but unlike a cold or an illness that presents physical symptoms, I still have to do normal things. But right now I feel like I can't.