Hi Dolly-cakes!
So...I am still recovering from this sinus infection nonsense. I was feeling almost better for a few days, and now I'm back to being exhausted, headached, throat-ached, and coughing up a storm. Also, I woke up at 4:30 this morning. Sigh...
I'm a sucker for surveys, and I found this one on Caitlin's blog, The Desert Dandelion, check her blog out, she is super cool. So here we go, survey bitches!
1) If you could change something about yourself, what would it be and why?
My depression for sure. It has been with me since my crappy childhood (undiagnosed 'til I was in my twenties), and has filled years of my life with horror and hopelessness. Seriously, mental illness is one of the worst things on earth. It is terrifying knowing (and experiencing on a daily basis) my brain lying to me, and trying to convince me to give up and kill myself.
2) What’s the farthest you’ve been from home?
R and I went to Maui a few years ago. We live in Northern California so I've never really been too far from home. I dream of going to London, France, and Italy, but I don't even have a passport!
3) What is your motto?
The thing I tell myself dozens of times a day is: "You are okay, it's going to be okay". It's not really a motto, but it is one of the few things that comfort me when I am alone and anxious or depressed.
4) What are your hobbies?
I like taking pictures, writing, making various things, pasting magazine clippings in my journal, decorating our house and making home reno plans. Also, loving our pups like crazy, reading poetry, and rambling on and on with Ronald whenever I get a chance.
side note: I have really stopped doing creative things. Creating is a very emotional process for me, and I am full of self-doubt. I have had an idea of something I wanted to create for over six months, I made my first 'prototype' last month and have yet to complete it or make more because I'm scared. I feel paralyzed and I fucking hate it. I am hoping to get past my fear and start a shop on Etsy at some point. My main goal now is just to create. I need to be a brave girl, but that is easier said than done.
5) What is your favorite ice cream flavor?
I think ice cream is my favorite flavor. ;) I really love cookie dough, rocky road, mint chocolate chip, and strawberry. Stop talking about ice cream, I'm getting my health-nut on and ice cream is not part of the plan!
6) What two things could you not do when you were a child, but you can do now?
I can spend time with anyone I want (I was banned from any people who weren't Christian as a child), I can wear anything I want (even tank tops! Seductive, I know...), and I can go to actual school if I want rather than being home schooled. Oops! That's 3...I could go on and on.
7) If you could travel anywhere in the world – where would you go and why?
I think Paris. I am a sucker for the dreamy impressions of it in movies, and want to walk along the Seine and think of Sylvia Plath.
8) Have you ever met a famous person?
I don't think so. I don't even think I've been near any real famous people, and if I was I would never approach them. It isn't that important to me, and I'm shy as hell.
9) What is your least favorite thing about yourself?
I have a constant feeling of guilt. It's so horrible. I also am extremely self-conscious. As in: I have been married over ten years and I still think my husband doesn't really like me. Yeah...that.
10) One word that describes you?
Tough.
11) If you were a crayon, what color would you be and why?
Pale or rosy pink.
12) What is the weather like right now where you are?
It's 50 degrees f. and still dark out. It has been warming up a ton and is almost hot during the day (75 degrees f.), I hate it because I love the cold and rain...well California's version of cold. :) We are also in a drought and it is only going to get worse as things warm up. I do love all the budding trees and flowers though.
13) How tall are you?
This reminds me of a scene from Best In Show, if you know what I'm talking about *high five!*
I'm 5'4".
14) When you were little – what did you want to be “when you grew up?”
A mom. A police officer. An archeologist.
15) Toilet paper. Roll with paper coming off the top or the bottom?
For a while I didn't care, it seemed like such a big deal over something silly, but now it's off the top for sure.
16) Favorite sport you like to watch or participate in?
If I was asked to play a sport, I would probably run away. I do play the hoops game with Ron at arcades and usually win (sometimes), but I know that isn't a sport...I would love to play a game of basketball with him one day and try to kick his ass. I don't watch sports other than the Super Bowl.
17) What kind of food do you prefer eating when you are out?
Mexican for sure. We have some good places around here and I love chips and salsa and tortillas (yay! Carbs!).
18) Last movie you watched?
Argo.
19) Would you like to be famous?
That is a terrifying thought, so no.
20) What book are you reading?
Z: A novel of Zelda Fitzgerald --by Therese Anne Fowler
Handmade to Sell: Hello Craft's Guide to Owning, Running, and Growing Your Craft Biz --by Kelly Rand, Christine Ernest, Sara Dick, and Kimberly Dorn
21) If you have $5 million to spend in 5 days, but with the clause you could not spend any of it on yourself or your family, what would you do with it?
I would give to St. Jude, The Humane Society, and some of the small animal shelters in our area. Charities like World Vision, and The Red Cross, Wounded Warriors or another organization that helps veterans (especially those suffering with PTSD). I would also donate a lot to help the refugees in the Syrian civil war, check this out for some stats on the 5.5 million children suffering from the devastation (it's crazy, and not really focused on).
22) If you knew that you could try any kind of work/employment and that you would not fail, what would you attempt doing?
1. Be a writer
2. Have my own craft business/store where I sell my creations along with some vintage things
3. An oceanographer
4. A home decorator/designer
5. A graphic designer
Yay! I'm glad you did this too :) I'm the same way with my husband, whom I've been with for 11 years. Still waiting for him to realize how terrible I am and leave.
ReplyDeleteIt's so crazy how self-conscious I can be, and you too I see. I hate it!
Deletexx, C
"I think ice cream is my favorite flavor." Hah! Yes. Good call. And that guilt? I hear you. It's awful. Just awful.
ReplyDeleteYes. Ice cream is the best. And yes, guilt is a bitch.
Deletexx, C
It was good to get to know more about you, random-fact wise. I like it. Have you ever tried pistachio ice cream?
ReplyDeleteThanks Cassandra! I haven't, but it sounds great! I will try it!
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