life collection

Life has been so strange lately. I started coming down with a cold around February tenth, and I was down and out for about five weeks. And I mean, laying in bed or on the couch, not being able to do anything, and having no energy. Two antibiotics later I am a little better, but still not well.

I have bouts of energy here and there, but can't stick to my routine and end up exhausted every other day or so. My head is so full of pressure I feel like I'm going to pop. I am taking the over the counter meds my doctor told me to try, vitamins, doubling up on Emergen-C, and juicing every day...still not better.

It seriously is the worst. I complain constantly because I'm just in shock at how bad I can feel for so long! It's been almost seven weeks and I just can't believe it. I do what I can, but mostly I rest and make plans of the things I will do when I can start functioning again.

My mind is so overwhelmed and frazzled. I feel super guilty for getting behind on things, and I am getting more and more stressed. Then I remember I'm sick and that it's ok...but I still feel the stress physically. I feel desperate and seriously cannot remember what it was like to not be sick.

On top of this, I'm dealing with my fibromyalgia pain, nightmares and insomnia, as well as the ebb and flow of depression. It's easy for me to get discouraged. I am doing my best, and that's all I can do.

I do have some exciting things in the works (at least the brain/planning part). I hope to share some of them soon. Soon being the next month or two...who knows when I'll feel better! ;)

It's really hard to be sad when this little Cricket smiles at me! She is such a doll (and also extraordinarily anxious, barky, kissy, bouncy, lazy, crazy).