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A lot has happened this year. Health wise it was a bit of a mess, but I also had two glorious months not depressed! Ronald and I had some adventures, and we also enjoyed lazy days at home eating too much pizza and binge watching tv.

I'm in the middle of a month long fibro flare up and bout of depression. This means tons of pain, joint swelling, fatigue, and bad sleep, along with crazy crying spells and just blah. I can barely bathe and I am bored as fuck, but can't do much of anything other than watch tv since I can't think straight enough to read due to fibro fog, oh and I can't read anyway since I can't hold a book or my iPad in my hands without getting crazy finger cramps.

Needless to say, this is a shitty way to end the year and I'm doing my best to keep positive. There is so much I want to do. I want to get back to writing, photography, and plant a spring garden. I also want to learn to sew and I want to make things with my hands. I miss crafting and creativity, so I'm going to do my best to immerse myself in the things I love.

I'm also going to continue learning French, find a good rheumatologist, get a bike, change my hair up (secret plans here), hopefully get a tattoo, and start taking the pups for walks and adventures. Oh and be more social but shit is that hard.

I want Ronald and I to go to the beach once a month, to go on a date to the drive-in, and we are trying to set up a trip to Lisbon in June.

House-wise we need to get shit done! We just got a home equity loan so now it's up to meeting contractors and making plans. Oh, and me getting brave enough to let construction workers come into our little nest for several weeks. It's a huge anxiety provoker for me, but it would be nice to have new bathrooms and oh...did I say bathtub? Whoo!

Probably going to just get takeout and drink whiskey tonight. Also a champagne toast to 2015. I wanted to doll up and go out on the town, but not tonight. Hopefully I'll be up and around soon!

Happy new year!

xo, C